Thursday Poem

As I drive around town, I’ve been seeing fruit on the trees–first peaches, then pears and now apples. This is a dense one but it’s lovely.

 

A Sweetening All Around Me As It Falls
by Jane Hirshfield (1992)

Even generous August
only a child’s scribblings
on thick black paper, in smudgeable chalk –
even the ripening tomatoes, even the roses,
blowsy, losing their fragrance of black tea.
A winter light held this morning’s apples
as they fell, sweet, streaked by one touch
of the careless brush, appling to earth.
The seeds so deep inside they carry that cold.
Is this why some choose solitude, to rise
that small bit further, unencumbered by love of earth,
as the branches, lighter, kite now a little higher
on gold air? But the apples love the earth and falling,
lose themselves in it as much as they can at first touch
and then, with time and rain, at last completely:
to be that bone-like One that shines unleafed in
winter rain,
all black and glazed with not the pendant gold of
necklaced summer but the ice-color mirroring
starlight
when the earth is lonely and dark and knows nothing
of apples.
Seed-black of the paper, seed-black of the waiting
heart—
December’s shine, austere and fragile, carves the
visible tree.
But today, cut deep in last plums, in yellow pears,
in second flush of roses, in the warmth of an hour,
now late,
as drunk on heat as the girl who long ago vanished
into green trees,
fold that loneliness, one moment, two, love, back into
your arms.

 

Fall Feelings

I posted about The Dry Down–a newsletter about perfume–a couple of years ago and I’m still enjoying it (I’m enjoying it so much I’m a paying subscriber). Yes, it’s about perfume and I’ve found a couple that I really love through the authors’ guidance, but what I enjoy most is how Rachel Syme and Helena Fitzgerald use writing about perfume as a way to sum up big feelings.

Like this, for example, and fall, which is breathing down our necks:

This time of year is a huge dose of feeling with little recourse to action. Golden leaves are connected to an activity, leaf-peeping, a hideous out-loud term that I learned about in my twenties on the East Coast and couldn’t believe anyone actually said with a straight face. But even this archaic-preppy-bourgeois term is about a kind of longing and nothingness, reaching for something that offers no landing point, no destination toward which the reach can extend. “Let’s go and look at the leaves” is very silly but also kind of sad and poignant. I feel so much and all I can do about it is… drive by some trees?

This empty destination is the crack where capitalism gets in, of course, which is why those of us who love–or just feel something big about–fall often associate it with things we can buy, sweaters and lattes and boots and pencils and soups and produce and decorative gourds. Buying stuff is always there, lurking in the places where we feel too much and don’t know what to do with those feelings.

Little Cats On The Prairie (Skirt)

Since I’m all about volume and skirts and dresses and ruffles now, I guess going full petticoat was only a matter of time:

I completely impulse bought this fabric after a trip to the dentist, which is right next to the new and fabulous JoAnn store in town. I mean, resistance was futile, right?

Then I got it in my head that the little cats needed to be a button-front skirt with a ruffle and lots of volume. None of the modern patterns I looked at had enough fullness so I found something vintage on Etsy (I’m guessing mid-80s, about the time Out of Africa hit theaters?).

The pattern delivered on the volume–to the point where I wondered if I’d gone past “stylish retro Madewell” and right into “Laura Ingalls Wilder.” But I wore it yesterday and all the younger women at work loved it, as did the Whole Foods cashier, so I think it falls into the “stylish” camp.

I’m pretty sure I had a kid-sized version of this pattern circa 1986, made by my mom in a pink and blue plaid. I know some people hate it when the fashions they remember come back in style, but I, for one, love it.

Friday Links

1. Have you thought about giving up Amazon Prime? We did, about a year ago, and wow does your ordering from Amazon decrease (that was the goal). Turns out that the “last mile” of Prime deliveries is all contracted for Amazon, which means it’s fraught with worker abuse, accidents, and a lack of regulations–and Amazon can claim zero responsibility. (Seriously. Stop giving this company your money.)

2. The soundtrack to “It’s the Great Pumpkin, Charlie Brown” has been reissued on glow-in-the-dark vinyl. This is not a drill (this is also the first time the soundtrack has been available on vinyl).

3. Friday motivation from Lisa Congdon (go see her tonight at West Elm!):

Thursday Poem

This is from her book Dark Fields of the Republic: Poems 1991-1995 . “This is not somewhere else but here” is such a warning.

What Kind of Times Are These
Adrienne Rich

There’s a place between two stands of trees where the grass grows uphill
and the old revolutionary road breaks off into shadows
near a meeting-house abandoned by the persecuted
who disappeared into those shadows.

I’ve walked there picking mushrooms at the edge of dread, but don’t be fooled
this isn’t a Russian poem, this is not somewhere else but here,
our country moving closer to its own truth and dread,
its own ways of making people disappear.

I won’t tell you where the place is, the dark mesh of the woods
meeting the unmarked strip of light—
ghost-ridden crossroads, leafmold paradise:
I know already who wants to buy it, sell it, make it disappear.

And I won’t tell you where it is, so why do I tell you
anything? Because you still listen, because in times like these
to have you listen at all, it’s necessary
to talk about trees.

Thinking About Ruffles

Fashun has gone full Victorian/Edwardian this season–which makes sense, since the early 90s also did (thanks, Merchant-Ivory films) and the 90s have been back for a bit now. That means there are ruffles all over. Do I want to sew something covered in ruffles? I think I might–but maybe not in a floral, to avoid going all the way into Howard’s End/Anne Shirley territory.


McCall’s 7977 + striped cotton/rayon voile

 


Roscoe Blouse + printed rayon twill


Wilder Gown & Blouse + tencel lawn

 

(All the RTW examples are from Madewell. I may or may not own 60% of the fabric pictured.)

Mole Just Wants To Live By A River

We went for another hike by another mountain stream over the weekend. (I couldn’t get in this one, since it’s a watershed; very hard for Moley.)

I don’t know where this fascination with running water has come from but I’m about ready to see if I can go make a life on a river, just like Mole:

This day was only the first of many similar ones for the emancipated Mole, each of them longer and full of interest as the ripening summer moved onward. He learnt to swim and to row, and entered into the joy of running water; and with his ear to the reed-stems he caught, at intervals, something of what the wind went whispering so constantly among them.

(The entirety of The Wind in the Willows is online, btw.)