Remember when I quoted poems and talked about books? Here’s a poem that flashed through my mind last night. Actually, it was just the first line of the poem that flashed, since I’ve always had trouble really understanding this one. But I come closer every time I read it–I think yesterday I finally got a grasp on
A man goes far to find out what he is–
Death of the self in a long, tearless night,
All natural shapes blazing unnatural light.”


Anyway, here it is: “In A Dark Time,” by
Theodore Roethke, who might be elevated to imaginary boyfriend status because I love his poems so much.

In a Dark Time

In a dark time, the eye begins to see,
I meet my shadow in the deepening shade;
I hear my echo in the echoing wood–
A lord of nature weeping to a tree,
I live between the heron and the wren,
Beasts of the hill and serpents of the den.

What’s madness but nobility of soul
At odds with circumstance? The day’s on fire!
I know the purity of pure despair,
My shadow pinned against a sweating wall,
That place among the rocks–is it a cave,
Or winding path? The edge is what I have.

A steady storm of correspondences!
A night flowing with birds, a ragged moon,
And in broad day the midnight come again!
A man goes far to find out what he is–
Death of the self in a long, tearless night,
All natural shapes blazing unnatural light.

Dark,dark my light, and darker my desire.
My soul, like some heat-maddened summer fly,
Keeps buzzing at the sill. Which I is I?
A fallen man, I climb out of my fear.
The mind enters itself, and God the mind,
And one is One, free in the tearing wind.