This is me lately, minus the bread baking. Although maybe my problem is more insomnia than grief.
What is it?
Liam Ó Muirthile
I go from room to room
around the house
looking for something,
and, to be honest, I won’t know
what it is
till I find it.
It’s not the bread tin,
nor the coarse brown flour,
nor the fine white flour,
though I take them out
and measure them on the scales
and bake a single loaf.
It’s not any book I was devouring,
if memory serves me correctly,
that I put down absent mindedly,
although I stand at the shelves
and scan the book stacks
and fall to my knees.
It’s not any missing key.
I wasn’t going out.
I didn’t leave anything on, although
I’m shuffling from room to room
scouring the whole house for something
and it’s nothing
and I’m scouring quiet sorrow.